Hello Cold World

I haven’t updated my Tumblr in a good long while so I figured I should do something about that. All in all, life has been pretty good. It has its ups and downs but I finally feel like I’m at a place where I’m just content. I feel like I’m figuring out who I am… Which is nice because I had no clue before. 

I think a lot of teenagers have that problem. We get so caught up in our “group” and who our friends are and trying to live up to what everyone expects of us that we lose who we really are. Nobody is to blame for that, it just kind of happens over time. I didn’t even realize it until recently. 

I was trying to be like everybody else and be what they expected me to be and I lost myself. I tend to be a follower instead of a leader anyway so that added to it. But here lately I’ve had a lot of time to (as cliche as it sounds) Find myself.

It’s like I finally get it now. I know (more or less) who I am and what I want out of life. And even if I don’t know something or I change my mind that’s okay because I’m only 16 years old… I don’t have to have all of the answers right now. 

You may not know me very well, you may have heard about me, or maybe you just want to know a little more. Either way… here’s who I am. Straight from the source.

I am…

Headstrong and stubborn but I know when to let it go. I’m clumsy, at times ditzy, and I have a lot of blonde moments. I put up walls to make you think I don’t care but that’s just because I’m afraid of getting hurt. I’m working on that. I come across as tough sometimes but I’m really a sap on the inside. I laugh a lot (some would say too much). I make a joke out of just about everything… I really love to laugh. Sometimes people find that annoying. I’m one of the most indecisive people you’ll ever meet. I love music with a passion and I secretly love to sing, although I have no clue if I’m any good at it or not.

I used to be a dancer… Sometimes I wish I still was. I love summer & fall. The other two seasons can die. One day, I want to take a road trip across the USA. I want to see the entire East coast, come back to SC, and then go across to California. I love Jehovah, my family, and my friends. I try my hardest to be a good person and a good friend. I feel like if you have nothing nice to say, then you shouldn’t say anything at all. Which is why 9 times out of 10 I just keep my mouth shut. 

I speak Sarcasm as my second language. I like to rant. I have strong opinions… Sometimes I get carried away and give them when nobody asked for them. I usually don’t take life too seriously. I believe that personal drama should stay in your journal, not the newsfeed. I don’t like playing mind games and I don’t like talking about other people unless theres a legit reason. I believe you shouldn’t judge someone on what somebody else told you about them, form your own opinion. I love with everything I have and sometimes I fall too easily and then everything gets awkward and messy. I’m working on that too. I believe everything in life is a learning experience, the good and the bad… Either way, you learned something from it. 

Basically… I’m a work in progress. But I think I’m headed in the right direction. ^_^